Sunday 6/7/2026

I been studying getting ready for math all weekend, I'm so burnt out. Sorry I ain't updating this ):

Friday 6/5/2026

Ok so techniclly I'm writing this on 6/6/2026 at midnight but that doesn't matter. Point is, today was... ehhh... Remember when I said that I had a bad time with the math test or whatever? Yeah, now I have a second one stacked on it. I finally finished chemistry, and the only thing left to do for choir is to sin at graduation tomorrow (today). English is done, History has that weird poster assignment, Spanish is pretty much done, Gym is done, so all thats left that has me worried is math. It's never clicked with me the class is just so boring. If I cannot witness or imagine a clear example of what is going on in a class, I lose interest. Like numbers mean nothing to me, its absurd that one of our core classes is some bs, and I know thats over-said and stuff, but I think that math being one of the main classes colleges look at to decide someone's future is absurd. I went over some of the math stuff with my dad, and some of it we couldn't figure out.

In between school and practicing math, I took a 40 minute nap, and when I woke up I felt this overwheming sense of dread. It felt like i needed to puke but there was nothing to cough up, I wanted to like, rip off my skin or something. Ok that sounds like I'm trying to be edgy or something but I just felt stuck in my own body, not even entirely in a gender-dysphoria way. I had a massive headache and my throat was so dry, I drank some gatorade while practicing the math. I had this "Arctic Blitz" flavor, and it looks like something radioactive, like I shouldn't be putting it in my body. That last part is probably true for a lot of things but this especially.

I kinda skip around my day cuz i dont go into writing this with a plan, so earlier in the day, we had graduation rehersal. I actually don't have much interesting stuff to say about it, but we did get to watch the senior picture get taken.

Today we got Chinese food, and let me say, I've always had a complicated relationship with crab rangoon. Originally, I hated them, but more recently, I started liking them more. My main problem with it is that once you get to the middle, theres too much crab-cheese compared to the outside breading, but on the four triangle-things that stick out, theres too much breading for the crab-cheese, and its too crunchy. Theres no good middleground, and I think the overall flavor is too strong anyways. I've always been a picky eater, I parcially blame it on my parents, because growing up, whenever I wouldn't eat something they'd yell at me pretty loudly. I had this whole thing where I had to communicate that I felt like I was being a burden because they yelled at me too much. Today they're working on improving, at least my dad is. That was my original main reason for being kinda depressed. Today it's all gender dysphoria and work and worrying about the future. Anyways thats why I think crab rangoons' flavor is too strong or not strong enough.

Speaking of crabs and underwater life and shit, the baby fish are doing well!!! I've only seen one of them eat so far, but I'm sure as soon as they understand how to eat properly, they'll all start eating. Currently, I'm giving them crushed up fish flakes. It's so fun watching the one dart at the food as it drifts across te water. I told some choir friends today the story of the fish, and showed them the video of them swimming around. I hoping they like it.

One thing I've noticed about myself is that I always have major tonal shifts depending on who I'm talking to. Right now, all who really reads these are me and my partner, so I like to consider this writing to be coming from like... How I act in my thoughts? I'm always pretty polite but around some people I get a little too goofy, I can tell when some people start to get annoyed with me, but the people that do are usually uptight narcissists who think they're better than me, so I can dismiss their opinions. Around a lot of the choir peoples, I tend to be a little shyer for some reason. It's very much true that the humor of the friend groups I have in other classes doesn't really match the mood of the choir room, and thats not a bad thing. It feels like a lot of corny jokes and stuff can fly around in there, so I have trouble picking what to say. Sometimes what I say doesn't feel funny enough, or I go a pinch too far.

Genuinley just spent like, 30 minutes writing this, It's 1:10 now I gotta go to sleep. Goodnight yall, no photos today I'm too lazy.

Thursday 6/4/2026

Omg ok so today was actually so cool. School was pretty generic, but it was sad because it was my last school day with the seniors. Our original spanish teacher left or got fired or something, and our new one is... a little odd? Like no disrespect, she's just kinda felt a little off. She used to be an elementary art teacher, so I can tell she used to dealing with immature kids. but ANYWAYS, during the spanish classes, me and the other choir kids in there go to the choir room and we hang out and play gartic phone, or roblox, or just talk or something. I had my switch today, so I ended up playing multiplayer Suika Game against one of my friends. I felt bad cuz it was their first time playing, and I ended up playing the best I'd every played. I also showed her Celeste, she got frustrated at it but I think she liked the concept, I was replaying through the game, and was in the Hotel section, so I handed her the switch in the middle of that area. But this is the last time we're able to do that, so i'm sad.

Another wack thing that happened was that an account called "[School name] Gacha" appeard, and started making Gacha Life content where all the characters are based on teachers and other things related to our school. I made a "fan account" for it, but in the proccess, I saw that the account was following one of our shitty old teachers who I'll have to talk about in a later thing, basically they did some shitty things, like getting kids to do chores and bringing them to her house, it's obvious her plan was to exploit the children for her own benifit. Anyways, I followed her account and a few minutes later SHE FOLLOWED ME BACK! I was so happy about this. I get in this weird funk whenever someone genuinley horrible enters my personal life, I just get kinda obsessed with like... understanding them? Like how historians talk about how horrible people were throughtout history. Bad people fascinate me. The Gacha account uploaded some videos throughout the day, it was fun to check back, apperantly one of my friends knows who's behind the account, and they made a video for the page. A lot of this was happening in English class lmao.

In my history class though, we're all supposed to be making posters about an empire. The problem is that I don't actually know what about the empire is supposed to be on the poster. Our teacher is out grading AP tests, so we have vague notes to describe everything. I absolutley love my history teacher though, he's genuinley a cool dude and he teaches really well. He has strict phone rules but that never bothered me because his teaching style is so interesting. He doesn't even swear at the class I just feel engaged in whatever he's talking about. He barely ever misses a school day, he seems pretty diligent, but I feel like thats kind of why the notes were so vague, he might not be used to writing them. Also, one of my senior friends got a fucking attendance note warning, on his LAST DAY. He said that he wanted to burn it up or rip it, I just found it funny. I didn't know if I should seperate those two sections into different paragraph but this is MY page mothafucker so... get used to poor writing ig. I promise I'm an actual good writer when I want to.

Ok so the best part of the day actually happened after school. See, I have a fish tank in my room, and one time, later last year I think, I wanted to get more fish for it, so I got 2 more Zebra Danios, but the goddamn employee at the pet store reccomended I get 7 DWARF RAINBOWFISH to add to the tank. My tank is a 25 gallon, so this was a HORRIBLE IDEA, I look back at this with regret for not being smarter. It just so happened that the 2 Zebra Danios I got were little cute babies, so I added all of the fish in there. The male one ended up doing fine, but the female one not so much. She was pretty much bullied by the rainbowfish, to the point where she lost her entire back fin. It was nibbled off. It disgusts me just talking about it I feel so guilty. Anyways, after seeing this stuff happen, I set up a small 3 gallon tank and moved the little fish there. It was scary, as she was sometimes not swimming, and just sitting on the bottom, or staying static in one place in the water. My mom and I set up her 55 gallon tank to move the rainbowfish in, and thats what we eventually did. Eventually the little fish was able to swim on it's own, so I moved it back into the rainbowfish-less tank. At first, she exibited the same shy behavior as before, and his behind a gap between the heater and the back wall of the tank, but I gradually watched her slowly move out during feeding. Today, despite her tail fin healing back in a strange small shape, she's a strong swimmer, and whenever I put my hand in the tank, she likes to nip at it. It's clear that she's confident now. When telling this story to my choir class, one of the seniors dubbed the fish "Scoliosis Fish" because when fish get stressed, their tails get droopy, and I described it like scoliosis. I'm still mad at myself for letting any of this happen in the first place, but I'm happy that all the fish are doing well today.

Anyways lol, thats all backstory for what happened TODAY, because when I got home, for some reason I decided to look in my mom's fish tank while grabbing a soda. I saw some weird little things darting around the tank, and thats when I relized THE RAINBOWFISH HAD BABIES!!! They were so tiny and cute. I asked my mom if I could raise them, and she said yes. I set up the same tank I used for Scoliosis Fish, and grabbed 2 out of the 3 babies and put them in the tank. The problem was that I had a music banquet thing at 6:00, and we had to go soon, so I left the third smallest baby in the big tank. The choir banquet was cool but long, I ended up getting three class rewards, The "Irish Goodbye" award, meaning that I leave quickly and quietly (accurate), The "Silent but deadly" award, because I don't talk a whole lot, but am a good singer, and the third one we couldn't hear, but I won it, so cool. After getting home from the banquet, the first thing I did was go to grab the smallest baby fish, but when I got there it wasn't in the usual corner I found it in. Instead, I found it swimming around in the middle of the tank. I rescued him from that and brought him up. All three babies are now in the three gallon tank. They are SO SO SO ADORABLE PRECIOUS AND DELICATE. I was SUPER careful helping them, so I hope they're good tommorow morning.

Heres the gallery for today. I was gonna put the switch video of me getting the watermelon in suika game but I'm now relizing that I left my switch in my backpack. So if it's there that means I added it later. Also catbox is down rn ): The image is of the new tank for the babies, and the video is of the babies in my mom's algae-ridden tank, if the video file works. Edit: video file doesn't work ): so ig you gotta look at an empty box with a play button. Edit 2: click here to watch the video

Wednesday 6/3/2026

I finally got this page working!!! I don't really know what to write about... uhm... I started a math test today but it was really hard, only like, 2 people in the class managed to finish it before the hour was over. For some reason today we were celebrating America's 250th birthday, and there was a "parade" at the start of the math period. It was apperantly supposed to be an "elementary parade" but we watched at 13 little kids walked by followed by like, 20 juniors. It took longer to walk to the first floor than to watch the parade.

Some bittersweet stuff happened too. See, I'm in my school's "singers" group, which is consisted of sophmores to seniors, and all of the seniors were really cool, but it was our last class together, as they all graduate on friday I think. I got everyone in the class to sign my yearbook, and was invited to a couple grad parties, so I'm gonna see them again. I like spending time with all of them but idk it feels like I'd have to get to know them better before doing something like playing games with them, so I'm sad that that time was cut short. Is this too personal? Is anyone gonna read it anyways?

Oh there was also this game that was going on all day, where everyone got one of those cheap plastic beaded necklaces in either red, white, or blue. The way the game worked was that if you beat someone in rock paper scissors, they had to give you ALL of their neckaces (we just called the necklaces "beads" for some reason idk). Of course there were some times when people bartered with eachother. I offered one of my friends one of my necklaces and a bag of cheez-its, and he put down one of his necklaces and all of the answers to one of our math reviews. I ended up winning the best of three, he gave me the necklace but not the answers. It was during lunch, and usually during lunch him and two of the other kids I'm friends with go to the choir room, for some reason I never have, I just kinda sit there alone with my phone. I still don't know why I do that. earlier, that kid I beat competed with one of the teachers (the teachers all had starred necklaces that were worth more or something) and the teacher said that he was going to play "Volcano-Palmtree-Ocean" or something along those lines. Think of it like Pokemon. Ocean beats volcano, palmtree beats ocean, volcano beats palmtree. For the ocean, you'd essentially T-pose, for a palm tree, you'd do that MrBeast pose, and for a volcano, you'd put your arms up in a triangle formation. The kid won, and the whole class watched. This was before we had to do some lame titrations. They're too slow.

I did upload a new video today, we were so bored during the titrations that I recorded this gem. I think its supposed to be a referenc to The Boys? Still don't know. I think I'm gonna try to add a photo every day I do an entry, so here's some lab stuff.